Congratulation! The bad feeling about that previous post I posted has return!!
I tried my very best to suppress my feeling from that time on and the bad feeling can't be suppress that long and it return 2 times! This is the second time!!
So, I'm going to suppress this bad feeling under my heart again even though my heart broken again this time... As I think too much about it...
Pray for me, I'm going to suppress this bad feeling for another two and half years, after my Uni life is over. I shall return to my hometown that time and do something about that. Two and half years, is quite a long time but I will try my very best to overcome this bad feeling, no matter what happen, although I'm going crazy about it.
The end of today story.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Something happened cannot be change!
I haven't come to this blog for quite a long time...
I'm back to my hometown last 2 weeks ago. Before I return to my hometown I felt something bad was happening but I don't know what was that. Until I returned, I still felt weird but I don't know what is happening exactly, until last Friday.
Last Friday, I'm about depart from my house to a big shopping mall, because PC fair was there from that day until Sunday. I felt bored and then I go to internet and check something, like bills. I discovered something interesting but is quite sad for me. Then I found out it was happened quite a long time after I left my hometown from my last return. I kept convince myself with good words, but it didn't get over my head, so I going to prove it from that time.
I had proved something during the afternoon and my heart was broken till I can't convince myself anymore. Until the night, I proved something again and I cried a bit, then I acted like nothing was happened before. I know I can't act like this so I proved something again the next night, and I cried terribly during that night.
After all these things had happened, I try to accept it. Until today, I'm still trying. I know it is not easy to accept it even though myself cried another time this Monday, can you imagine how sad it would be. Until now, while I'm typing here, I feeling sad everyday, every hour, every minutes, every seconds and every moment. This has to be my carelessness so it does cause this happened. But I had decided I want to walk through this path, I won't give up so easily. I will last this thing as long as I can, not the pain in my heart anyway. I won't regret what I've done for now.
I still have many things to write here but I can't because some of it is my personal things that can't be reveal here. You may find out most of the thing i wrote here is unclear, then let it be.
For my friends, enjoy every single moment that you have, with no regrets.
A very good luck to my friends.
I'm back to my hometown last 2 weeks ago. Before I return to my hometown I felt something bad was happening but I don't know what was that. Until I returned, I still felt weird but I don't know what is happening exactly, until last Friday.
Last Friday, I'm about depart from my house to a big shopping mall, because PC fair was there from that day until Sunday. I felt bored and then I go to internet and check something, like bills. I discovered something interesting but is quite sad for me. Then I found out it was happened quite a long time after I left my hometown from my last return. I kept convince myself with good words, but it didn't get over my head, so I going to prove it from that time.
I had proved something during the afternoon and my heart was broken till I can't convince myself anymore. Until the night, I proved something again and I cried a bit, then I acted like nothing was happened before. I know I can't act like this so I proved something again the next night, and I cried terribly during that night.
After all these things had happened, I try to accept it. Until today, I'm still trying. I know it is not easy to accept it even though myself cried another time this Monday, can you imagine how sad it would be. Until now, while I'm typing here, I feeling sad everyday, every hour, every minutes, every seconds and every moment. This has to be my carelessness so it does cause this happened. But I had decided I want to walk through this path, I won't give up so easily. I will last this thing as long as I can, not the pain in my heart anyway. I won't regret what I've done for now.
I still have many things to write here but I can't because some of it is my personal things that can't be reveal here. You may find out most of the thing i wrote here is unclear, then let it be.
For my friends, enjoy every single moment that you have, with no regrets.
A very good luck to my friends.
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