I want to grow up.

I did something terribly wrong today.

I got scolded and ask me to grow up, please.

I promised and I will keep my promise.

I will never do that stupid thing again to blow up my life.

I want to grow up.

Second day of 2010

Yo Happy New Year to all of you and Welcome to the year 2010!

Today, the second day of 2010, let us forget about the sad things that happened in year 2009 and start all over again in year 2010~!

Yahoo~

The bad feeling has return...

Congratulation! The bad feeling about that previous post I posted has return!!

I tried my very best to suppress my feeling from that time on and the bad feeling can't be suppress that long and it return 2 times! This is the second time!!

So, I'm going to suppress this bad feeling under my heart again even though my heart broken again this time... As I think too much about it...

Pray for me, I'm going to suppress this bad feeling for another two and half years, after my Uni life is over. I shall return to my hometown that time and do something about that. Two and half years, is quite a long time but I will try my very best to overcome this bad feeling, no matter what happen, although I'm going crazy about it.

The end of today story.

Something happened cannot be change!

I haven't come to this blog for quite a long time...

I'm back to my hometown last 2 weeks ago. Before I return to my hometown I felt something bad was happening but I don't know what was that. Until I returned, I still felt weird but I don't know what is happening exactly, until last Friday.

Last Friday, I'm about depart from my house to a big shopping mall, because PC fair was there from that day until Sunday. I felt bored and then I go to internet and check something, like bills. I discovered something interesting but is quite sad for me. Then I found out it was happened quite a long time after I left my hometown from my last return. I kept convince myself with good words, but it didn't get over my head, so I going to prove it from that time.

I had proved something during the afternoon and my heart was broken till I can't convince myself anymore. Until the night, I proved something again and I cried a bit, then I acted like nothing was happened before. I know I can't act like this so I proved something again the next night, and I cried terribly during that night.

After all these things had happened, I try to accept it. Until today, I'm still trying. I know it is not easy to accept it even though myself cried another time this Monday, can you imagine how sad it would be. Until now, while I'm typing here, I feeling sad everyday, every hour, every minutes, every seconds and every moment. This has to be my carelessness so it does cause this happened. But I had decided I want to walk through this path, I won't give up so easily. I will last this thing as long as I can, not the pain in my heart anyway. I won't regret what I've done for now.

I still have many things to write here but I can't because some of it is my personal things that can't be reveal here. You may find out most of the thing i wrote here is unclear, then let it be.

For my friends, enjoy every single moment that you have, with no regrets.

A very good luck to my friends.

Sick!

Huh! Sick?? Unfortunately, I fell sick last Sunday.

There is influenza A (H1N1) all around the world. Everyday I read news, the cases related to influenza A is raising in my country. Most of the school in my hometown closed for 1 weeks because only 2 to 3 students affected by the virus. See how strong is this virus.

Unfortunately, I feel sick on last Sunday. I got fever and cough, and suddenly I am so scared of death during that time. So I called my friend, Calvyn, to risked his life and bring me to the clinic. And then I got a body temperature test, the test showed 37.5 degree Celsius to me. I think it is quite high, but doctor said 37.8 to 38 degree only have to go to general hospital and quarantine by them, and I am almost around the level, scary.

Luckily, after I slept for 2 to 3 hours after back from clinic, my fever gone, but cough still remaining until now. *Coughing*

I hope I can get rid of this stupid coughing time asap, this makes me hard to talk with my friends. And also my mouth ulcer, makes me hard to take food, even brush teeth!

At last, I'm looking forward to a car. =)

Microsoft offers free anti-virus

According to BBC News, Microsoft will release their trial version of free anti-virus soon later. The trial of free anti-virus only available in US, Brazil, China and Israel initially as they only produces 75,000 of the trial version. And they said that the free anti-virus will available in other countries in later this year.

-Original Source: Microsoft offers free anti-virus

What do you think of free anti-virus that programmed by Microsoft themselves? Is it good or bad?

I think the free anti-virus should be included in the latest product of Microsoft Windows, Windows 7, or the trial version should be open for everyone, not only for selected countries, so that we can try out the performance of its.

Symantec, AVG, etc... The popular security software company, can challenge with the free anti-virus by Microsoft now.

Kota Kinabalu

http://www.kotakinabalu.com

I just found out this website today! I don't even know have this website before until today! Surprise~

Since I have found this website, I am so missing my hometown KK... I wish to be there as fast as possible!

Can stay at home with family, hang out with girlfriend and family, hang out with my old pals, meet my ex-tutor.. a lot more.

I felt I'm being weird around these days, but I don't know why. Luckily I back to normal as I am!

I am simple person. Just be normal, don't like special. =)